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well .. [12 Aug 2007|04:14pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Summer is almost over. Its amazing how time can fly by so quick. But anyway, my summer has been alright. My work took over it for the most part but i made some money. I leave in four days for Cancun, Mexico! I'm so so so excited! I have never been outside the United States before in my life so this well be a new experience. Other than that, things are going smoothly. I'm still with James & I wouldn't have it any other way. =]

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summer 07 [30 Jun 2007|01:29pm]
The summer is finally here. This school year has been the longest I'll probably ever experience. It's crazy how time can fly by. Things have been working out wonderfully and I couldn't be happier with where I'm at in my life right now. I have friends who I would die for, a boyfriend who makes me feel like the most important person, and a family that stands by me and doesn't give up on anything. I have a feeling things are going to be fine and yes, I'll hit some bumps in the road .. well you know what I have to say to those bumps .. FUCK YOU! loll im so gay. =]
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new life .. new beginning [12 Mar 2007|07:43pm]
Let me just say I have had an interesting 3 months of my life. I am not with stephen anymore. Yes, he left me but now, I really don't care because I have moved on with my life and found someone new. His name is JAMES! He has helped me through so much and I love him very very very much. Stephen hurt me in ways that no girl or boy or ANYONE should be hurt. He played mind games with my head. I tryed being friends with the kid but that didn't work too well. So, I did what I had to do, I ended our friendship. So, now that part of my life is over. But, I'll never forget about steve. You never forget your first love no matter how hard you try. They will always be there and you can't get rid of them. But hey, that's life.

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whoah. [26 Feb 2007|09:56am]
Holy shit, it has been the longest time since I have been on here. My computer has been down at home so I really can't get on the internet too often. Well livejournal, I have missed you so much. I am in school right now so I can't really write much. But I will be back in time, or whenever I get my fucking computer at home working again =]

With Love,
Rachel =]]
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it's not like you caree. [07 Oct 2006|09:38pm]
[ mood | sad ]

it's not like you actually care about my feelings becauseall you do is complain about yours.

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school is back [28 Aug 2006|11:56am]
[ mood | amused ]

Ugggh. So, in a week, I finally have to go back to school & it is pretty much just gonna suck ass & I hate high school so there. lol

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=( [07 Aug 2006|09:40pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I guess I can never be happy ...

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i don't even have hope ... [04 Aug 2006|05:16pm]
[ mood | weird ]

I had an interesting conversation today with Paige. She asked me what I would do if I had a boyfriend & he just suddenly told me that he moved away. She asked, " Would you stay with him & try to make things work or would you leave him?" I said to her, " I would leave him." She said, " Even if you loved him?" I said, "Yup."

That shows that I have no hope. I don't really do long distance relationships because I have done them before & they are hard to make work. So, even if I loved the guy, I would leave him. Because, that's just me. I guess that makes me a bad person ... =/

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blah blah blah [20 Jul 2006|02:10pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

ugggh. i'm love struck.

enough said.

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*sigh* [14 Jul 2006|10:14am]
[ mood | disappointed ]

idk. mannn, alot has been on my mind & i just can't seem to remember or even think things straight anymore. but i shouldn't be one to complain, what i am going through is nothing compared to what some other people in this world are feeling or what their lives are like.

but i guess i just think things through too much & the only people i can turn to are my friends. they are the only people who i can really talk to. maybe, if i had a boyfriend i could talk to him. but hey, im still one of the lonley girls. so ... maybe i am meant to be alone for the rest of my life. who knows, maybe something will happen tomorrow or maybe something could happen in the next 20 years. but im loosing my paitients & all i have been asking for is happiness. is that so much to ask? yes of course i have my friends & family for happiness. but there is a different kind of happiness that i am still missing. that happiness of someone being by my side. someone there to tell me everything is going to be alright. someone who will tell me they love me & someone who will look into my eyes & tell me how beautiful i am. someone who would walk me home on a rainy night or a dark & scary night. someone who i can call my own. someone who can call me their own. someone who will just except me for who i am & love me for what i have. someone who could treat me right. not like a princess, but just ... like a person.

but what talk of foolishness am i saying ... the only thing i expect to find is someone who is willing to be commitied & someone who i know will always be there. he doesn't have to be perfect. he just has to be there for ME & be able to do anything for me & do anything for himself. =/

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Six Flags [05 Jul 2006|05:33pm]
[ mood | creative ]

I went to Six Flags today with Paige. We had a pretty good time except for the fact that is was raining most of the time. It got sunny AFTER we left. Just our luck, right? Right. lol.

But anyway, we went on some rides & just chilled out. It was pretty fun. <33

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WORLD CUP [05 Jul 2006|05:32pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Italy -vs- France on Sunday!!!! Can't wait for Italy to kick Frances ass!! =)

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Extremly bored [30 Jun 2006|10:58am]
[ mood | silly ]

Well, it has been summer for a couple of weeks now & I have had some good fun. But now, I'm starting to get really bored. It's probably because we live in Jersey & the only thing to really to do is t go to the movies. But, also you could go ice skating, bowling, the mall, paintball, play pool. There are things to do around here, but most people don't see it or like people are just lazy. Some kids throw parites & go & get drunk all summer. I would get drunk maybe once. Or twice.

We need like a teen hangout around here or something because like we don't do anything. There's clubs & bars for adults. We should have clubs & bars for us!


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mehh [22 Jun 2006|10:16pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

So there's this boy & he is stealing my heart <33

enough said =)

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Carnival [20 Jun 2006|09:45am]
[ mood | dorky ]

Last night, I went to a Carnival & it was pretty fun. I went with Chelsea, Marissa, Chris, Joe, & Summer the Puppy=) We had a fun time. When we first got there, we just walked around seeing who was there & stuff. Then these police officers told us that the dog had to go. I'm like " The dog isn't doing anything. It's sitting here not bothering anybody". But we still had to take him out.

So then we bought tickets to go on rides. First, we went on this ride where you lay down & where you fly in the air it is sooo much fun. lol. Then after that, Me & Chelsea when on the Zipper which I really didn't wanna go on because of bad experiance last year. But then I was like, '' fuck it'' & went on anyway. I'm glad I went on because we were making so much noise it was great. Then when we got off I saw this kid that I kind of have a crush on & was talking to people about him.

Then after a while, I lost my friend Marissa so I was looking for her but as I was looking for her I ran into my student teacher who I have been like attatchted to since 8th grade walked by. My God he is gorgeous. He had on a white beater & fitted, but baggy, jeans that made him look like the skinniest thing. Along with it, his belt with a bulky buckle was on with his hair spiked, like always, and had a camera dangling from his right shoulder.

We talked for a while & his smile just made me melt =) I'm not obssessed or anything, just think he is someone I'm going to possibly marry or just have babies with. I guess you can call it a teacher crush kind of thing.

But anyway, the night came to an end & then some kid got hit. It was a stupid boy & he was probably stoned off his ass. Then we went to Halo Pub to wait for Chelseas mom to come & pick us up. But me & Mars go in to get some ice cream. I see a lot of people I know. Then I saw an old crush of mine who I still have not met yet. I talked to him last night & he still seems to remember me.

Then we all went home. Peeewwwwwww, some night. Really wore me out, but I had a blast & I plan on going sometime soon .... like TONIGHT!! =)

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Damn it's been long [16 Jun 2006|06:51pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Sorry, I know I haven't written in a while. I have been so busy with school & planning my summer & getting a job I haven't had time to upload my livejournal.

But anyway, not a lot of things are up. But how about I am in love with this amazing boy named Eric who lives in Toms River. He is just amazing & I plan on marrying him & having beautiful children with him as well. I also plan to meet him sooner or later. I just wanna hold him & kiss him & never let go. I'm in love with someone I know I can't see that much. But as soon as I start driving, I will be seeing him every single day of my life because well, I fucking love this kid!!!

I Love you Eric & I hope you feel the same & I can't wait to meet you :-*

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lalalalala long night [28 May 2006|12:33am]
[ mood | tired ]

Yea tonight was fun. linsay slept over & now she is watching porn & im sitting here updating my livejournal.

we also went to the mall & got me a cute outfit for this Wednesday coming up. We have a trip to go to & we have to look nice. so yea i bought a cute little outfit from Forever 21 & now im tired so im going to bed.

peace out homes =)

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stupid stupid stupid [25 May 2006|03:11pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

God people need to fucking stop treating me like a child. i'm 15 years old & it's time for people to fucking grow up. it's stupid how people argue over boys. it's ghey. it's high school. dude, get the fuck over it. uggggh stupid people. lmao

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Prommmm [20 May 2006|11:27am]
[ mood | tired ]

Ok, so I went to my bros prom last night & he had a blast!

Except like 215465143215498 blacks guys were hitting on me lol

but other than that it was fun & my bro defenitly had a wonderful time. he was dancin & jumpin & eatin lol.

it was funny.

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love [13 May 2006|02:34pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Love is gheyy

It fucsk you over

o well

i have friends

their all the love i need

unless a miracle comes along & shows me the true meaning of being in love again ...

i guess i wont find out until i experiance it

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